Have you ever looked up, come to your senses, and taken account of your surroundings only to find yourself right back where you started? Or in familiar territory surrounded by people that you could have sworn you left behind? or their doppleganger's at least?.. Like life has somehow trapped you in its revolving doors and you are unable to escape. You can't find the opening and you are watching the same storylines go 'round and 'round before your very eyes.
You can call it deja vu or whatever works best for you, but I would bet that there's a lesson you've yet to learn. And despite your attempts to move on, pretend as if you have mastered that skill, the universe knows better and attemps to save you from yourself by putting you right back in those situations. Sometimes with the same people, sometimes with those who you could swear were their twins in spirit and character... the question isn't what do you do to get out of it or why are you there? The only question that you should be asking yourself is what is it that I need to learn to make this thing work? To make it productive. To have a better resolution than the last time...
What is that thing? You can ask and it may not be clear at first... but usually, there's a hint of something familiar that you recognize in this situation and you should begin at that point of recognition to be careful of your moves. Because the slightest error in direction could keep you going in circles for weeks, if not months to come... trapped in revolving doors. Unable to progress or move forward into your destined state of happiness.
What's funny about this is that I find myself walking in circles as we speak... Looking through the glass of revolving doors and checking out the scenery and I swear I've seen it before. I believe that I have traveled these lands before, chartered these waters.. and I believe they almost drown me last time. So, I'm looking for a life preserver please. What is it that I can grasp in this moment of recognition that will somehow save me from repeating the mistakes of last time? The last time it was a travesty... a damn wreck. And that's not just my opinion, but of everyone around me who witnessed that trifling event. So, I have no desire to repeat that performance, but man, does it seem to be the exact same thing... wow. What the hell am I supposed to do differently?
Obviously, I have no idea, and there's no one here with divine inspiration to guide me... so, I'll just have to take it one step at a time. Resist the urges that come so naturally and remember that it's actions like those that have brought this situation back to me, and I'll proceed cautiously. After all, walking too fast in revolving doors is bound to make you dizzy. And I need to keep my wits about me.
So, while I normally end these blogs with some revelation or instruction on what I believe to be the resolution... it is not so in this case. Maybe my example will be that which teaches you what not to do... lol. If so, make sure you come back and share that same wisdom with me, because for now, I'm sitting here thinking of this thing and wondering just how to survive it, benefit from it, and not kill it while I'm waiting patiently for some kind of revelation. Maybe it will come or irony will amuse itself and keep it from me, either way... I'll walk in this revolving door and at least enjoy the scenery.
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