a little light

if i could take a moment this morning to shed a little light into the inner workings of the female mind, and ladies, feel free to correct me if i'm wrong, but men, while you having a GOOD job is a plus, the fact that you have the tenacity to have A job will suffice. it's the effort, the grind of doing what you have to do that makes us love you.. not your title. so if it takes two jobs for NOW to equal the pay/level of what you're striving for, we're okay with that. and we will even support you, be there for you, and help you on your journey.

now, do i realize that there are females out there who only want to know what you can do for them, and need a "sponsor", sure i do, but i'm talking about women here... not girls, not persons of the female persuasion, not bitches or hoes....women. and we are out there.. on a grind of our own. most often picking up the pieces of leftover families and repairing the damage done by males we have mistakenly given our best to in the past.

and here lies another truth...and this one may seem unfair, but that's because it is. men, understand that the often "bipolarness" that you witness in us, is our willingness to try to love you openly combined with our fear of rejection and hurt. and we know that this is confusing for you. it's just the process. because the majority of us (notice how i can't say a few, or even half of us) .... the MAJORITY of us have been devastated by the men in our lives starting as little girls with innocent souls that daddy, uncle johnny, or neighbor sam has polluted with their inappropriate touches upon our delicate skin, and now that our adulthood men have touched our souls the same way... it 's hard to recover. if i could put it in terms that you men could understand, i would say imagine that your mother, sister, favorite auntie, school teacher, first love, and mother of your child all kicked you in the balls right before sex.... you might be celibate by now. we feel the same.

now, for the light at the end of the tunnel or the silver lining on this somewhat dark cloud i have created to rain on your parade: stick it out. i know that's hard. because she's putting you through some shit, but i promise, that if you can withstand her tests.. her pushing at you and waiting to see if you're different from the rest, she will be the best thing you've ever had. because a woman who KNOWS she is loved and that she can TRUST is faithful. she is a ride or die chick, a stand by your man chick, and she will adore you. you will have earned the right to lead her and she will follow willingly because she feels SAFE. it will take sacrifice on your part, i do NOT deny, but if you are willing to put in the work.... you will no longer be dealing with the tricks, hoes, and golddiggers who not just WANT, but NEED you to buy their drinks, clothes, and babies' pampers. i'm just sayin'.

so, if everyone has been paying attention, we should all understand that what we want and need is out there, but it will take work, sacrifice, and effort. and it will be SCARY.. but the REWARD will be worth it. who's ready to clock in?